In late August, 1956, I found myself in a dark
and lonely place in my mind. I was young, and lonely, feeling the world was to big and lonely for me. I knew about
Jesus, and I knew about
hell, but it really didn't come together in my mind what it all meant.
In my hurt and confusion, the devil whispered
in my mind that the only way out was to
die. I found myself looking out a fourth floor window into the dark night. As I prepared to open the window
and let myself drop over the edge, I heard an audible whisper next to my right ear. It said, quite clearly, "You are
jumping into Hell!" I was startled. The voice was plain and clear. But I went again to
open the window. Again I heard the whispered voice, loud and clear, by my ear. "You are Jumping into Hell! This
time I was so frightened that I ran away from the window. I grabbed a short stubby pencil and a piece of paper, and
wrote a poem that expressed my heart's lonely cry for the Rest that Jesus had promised.
Come unto Me, Jesus said in His word, and I will
give you Rest. But where was my Rest? I had no peace of mind. I had no peace of soul. I had no Rest.
I will give you Rest, Jesus had promised. But I had no Rest.
Then one day, I got invited to church.
It was a church full of the praises of people who had found the Rest of Jesus.
The pastor saw me sit down in the pew, and shouted
at me, "Young lady, God wants to save your soul, right now!"
I burst into tears.
He got the whole church praying for me, as he
came down to pray for me in the pew. He put his hand on my back and shouted at the devil to leave me, and I felt suddenly
a lifting of a chain on my Will.
The pastor led me up front, and I knelt down
to pray, with the whole congregation shouting their prayers behind me.
I told the Lord, I know I've hardened my heart
against You. Will you soften my heart so I can let You in? And when You have, put a smile on my face".
My sobs and tears instantly stopped, and I broke
into a pure, joyful laughter.
The Lord had taken my soul from dark night to
glorious light. It had been as though I was lost in a dark night at the end of a blind alley at midnight. But
the Lord exploded in my soul like a Fourth of July .
If you will call on Jesus, and ask Him to forgive
your sins, He will answer immediately, and pour His precious blood over you soul, and you will enter into the newness of life
that He promised.
Many of today's churches have forgotten what
they exist for. Churches do not exist to give preachers a good steady paycheck, or to sooth people to sleep about their
souls. Christ came to set men free from the bondage of the power called sin.
Sin is the power inside your soul that makes you mad when people tell you to obey God's laws. It is the
power in your soul that makes you nervous when people pray.
And Oh! how you hate it when the Bible is held
up as the Word of God. I don't want to believe God that way! If I admit that Jesus Christ actually is the Saviour
of the world, God in the flesh, then I might feel the need to repent of my sins!
But still, we are faced with the words of Jesus,
Come unto Me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you Rest. Take My yoke upon you. Learn of Me.
You will find rest to your souls. He promises Rest. REST.
REST. Rest of soul. Rest of mind. Rest of Spirit.
Why don't you have Rest now? Because
you are trying to live your life with the power of Sin dragging you down.
All the ridicule and
all the making fun of religion and all the put-downs you get from people who don't believe in Jesus cannot quiet the cry of
soul. Deep down in the lonely depths of your heart, you want
peace. You want Rest. But the only answer is Jesus. The one we call the Good Thief that hung
on the cross next to Jesus, said, Lord, remember me when you enter into your kingdom. He recognized Him for who He was--the
Sinless Son of God. He repented of his sin. He could do nothing to atone for his own sin. But Jesus forgave him of his
sins, and when he next opened his eyes, he was in
heaven, forever. The same promise is
to you, if you will turn to Him in
repentance for sin, and receive Him in faith and love.
People today do not understand what Hell is,
or why it is.
When Jesus died on the cross, it only took three
hours for Him to suffer and die, and take the
eternal punishment for our sins. Hell is everlasting, because we were made to be everlasting souls.
From within, out of the heart of man, comes the evil thoughts, thefts, adulteries, lies, betrayals, and all the cruelties
that Jesus calls sin. If we refuse to repent of these fires in our souls, when we die they are still a part of us, and
we take them with us. We are dragged away from God by the fires of Hell that are already in our own souls, created by
our own souls. God did not make the fires of Hell. We make them ourselves, and they become an eternal , everlasting,
part of us. When we call on Jesus to forgive us, He pours His Holy Blood over our souls and puts out the fires of Hell,
and cleans us up. We then become filled with His spirit, and when we die, we are drawn to Heaven.
We might be living in the 21st century, but
God is still God, His Word is still His Word, and Jesus Christ is still the Saviour, calling to you to repent of your stubborn
self will, and let Him clean you up and give you newness of life.
Don't be afraid. Let go. Take a
deep breath, let go, and repent of your sins. Ask Jesus to give you the Everlasting Life and forgiveness of sins,
that He died to obtain for you.